fuuny thing is i remembered deleting my blog! was reconsidering whether i should do another new one.. oh well.. its ok. maybe because i used the same name for my blog.. hmmm.. odd.
its a new year.. a new fresh start.. frankly speaking.. i wud rather write in my diary than on a blog.. lol.. after all the good old diary has been around for donkey years.. but i jus wanna update everyone who reads my blog.. wat has been happening in my life ..
well.. if u all had read my previous blog.. i have been unhappy for a long time.. even i didn't realise it till i read back.. and saw the entries in my diary.. i realise i was uphappy cos i really lost track of God in my life.. there seemed to be no purpose at all.. and of cos.. the relationship with Shawn wasn't reallly helping us very much... :( simply cos we're not walking right.. so finally.. we broke up.. Shawn has been really unhappy in his life as welll... probably the same way I feel.. very lost.. like a lost sheep.. we had became each other's God.. expecting each other to meet one another's need.. come to think of it.. it really sucks.. we jus kept pulling each other down & down.. draining each other out.. sigh.. of cos i'm sad.. i'm struggling.. but somehow there's a sense of relieve.. I'm pretty sure he still loves me alot.. and so do I.. but for now.. both of us has to walk with out mighty God.. i'm jus really really sad..though they say if u're meant to be u will be.. but human nature makes me wanna take things at my own course.. but i realise i've been doin tat all my life.. how long am i gg to keep falling again and again.. jus have to trust God.. and like Phil 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God. which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Jesus Christ.
i know not everyone would understand what is going on in my life. ... and i don't expect anything.. but i was really disappointed when i tot a close gf of mine would understand cos she believes in God as well... but I guess not.. :( all i need is support .. and so does Shawn... all we need is support..
its a new year.. a new fresh start.. frankly speaking.. i wud rather write in my diary than on a blog.. lol.. after all the good old diary has been around for donkey years.. but i jus wanna update everyone who reads my blog.. wat has been happening in my life ..
well.. if u all had read my previous blog.. i have been unhappy for a long time.. even i didn't realise it till i read back.. and saw the entries in my diary.. i realise i was uphappy cos i really lost track of God in my life.. there seemed to be no purpose at all.. and of cos.. the relationship with Shawn wasn't reallly helping us very much... :( simply cos we're not walking right.. so finally.. we broke up.. Shawn has been really unhappy in his life as welll... probably the same way I feel.. very lost.. like a lost sheep.. we had became each other's God.. expecting each other to meet one another's need.. come to think of it.. it really sucks.. we jus kept pulling each other down & down.. draining each other out.. sigh.. of cos i'm sad.. i'm struggling.. but somehow there's a sense of relieve.. I'm pretty sure he still loves me alot.. and so do I.. but for now.. both of us has to walk with out mighty God.. i'm jus really really sad..though they say if u're meant to be u will be.. but human nature makes me wanna take things at my own course.. but i realise i've been doin tat all my life.. how long am i gg to keep falling again and again.. jus have to trust God.. and like Phil 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God. which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Jesus Christ.
i know not everyone would understand what is going on in my life. ... and i don't expect anything.. but i was really disappointed when i tot a close gf of mine would understand cos she believes in God as well... but I guess not.. :( all i need is support .. and so does Shawn... all we need is support..
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