mood swings are getting worse.. erratic moods & emotions.. sigh.. suddenly feel like giving up God already.. me thinking.. wat so fast?! after all that He has done.. :( life sucks.. life really sucks.. wat will happen if i just give up.. life will probably go back to its oldself.. meaningless.. whenever i want to.. some form of encouragement will come.. perhaps in the rain.. in the wind. .. and even my cats.. cos i know He is there.. i really really suck at being faithful.. sighz.. i don't want to read the bible anymore.. i don't want to spend time with God anymore.. screw away the christian cds... yah.. i shd jus do that. cos tat's wat the devil wants anyway.. taking everything tat i have.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee