Hanged out with an old friend today.. was the 1st platonic friendship i had. who needs many many? i only need one. one best friend one platonic guy friend. more than enough.. more than i can ask for. and i'm glad and thankful. even the sims can't keep up with many many friends!! haha.. how realistic.. the most 5-6 really close friends.. and 1-2 really good ones..
Watched Troy. Troy is about love..wat else is new. the world is so lacking of love.. love between friends, brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, lovers, husbands, wives, cousins.. yea. Troy is a show about love.

Thank you God.. for reminding me tat i have not fully healed.. though i did try to convince myself i did.. yea.. there was breakthrough... but not enough. not finished. i wanna let go of the hurt, of the past, of the disappointment.. of the bitterness. should have known.. am cynical about love.. and i don't wanna believe. rite now.. all i believe is love in friendship.. and nothing more.
I wanna let go Jesus.
I want Your joy... to overflow outta me.. so that others will see Your love, your peace, your joy. and i don't have that rite now. but i won't stop trying. cos i don't wanna be the tree to be chopped down next year. let Your will be done. Isn't the bible about applying to life? to our daily lifes.. to our struggles?