jus got home.. and went straight to my room.. slumped my face into my pillow.. with xiao ding dang as my companion.. it didn't bother me a bit that i had no dinner.. after all i'm seldom home on mon nights.. past few weeks was out with leet.. wondering how she's doin today.. on this mon night.. but dear o dad had to bug me.. "u want otah? big juicy otah?" i mumbled no like twice.. thinking that he'll leave me alone.. still slumped in bed. the next thing i know.. he comes in and stuff the sandwich with otah into my face.. so he said u better eat it before xiaomi eats..

sweet o dad. brings a smile to my face. i wish i could be as cheerful as xiao ding dang.

feeling a sense of hopelessness... i think the worst is when u lose hope.. hope is life.. hope in yourself.. hope in Jesus.. sigh.. as the year unfolds.. i start to reflect on all the things that has happened.. wondering why God made it all happened.. good and bad.. perhaps its jus PMS. blame it on PMS.