familiarity brushes through my head as i stepped into changi airport once again.. how many times have i been there this year.. this year especially.. it was special.. and you would always appear in my head.. then.. i'll just simply brush it away again.. its my choice isn't it.. :) We can control our emotions? yes.. we can control our thoughts. a choice in everything we do.
i hope to travel one more time before i quit.. perhaps one more time as a tour manager.. that is if God allows.. once more to test myself.. if i have improved.. anywhere will do God.. anywhere u want to send me.. whether its laid back Perth or exciting Goldcoast.. perhaps even freezing snowy Korea.. everywhere is beautiful with You .. cos U created them..
been toying with the thought of quitting.. how abt being an air stewardess.. but the thought of not being in singapore means i cannot commit my time to more meaningful stuff.. not unless its God's purpose and that i can still serve him.. i realise as God changes my attitude.. there are still alot of things i can learn from my job.. still alot.. :) new found motivation to go on..
every now and then... different people will come into my thoughts.. i was just thinking what happened to David since Sonic fest.. and the other day at sonic edge.. he came.. as well as for last wed cell.. and lately.. its been old grandma.. how major a role she played in my growing up.. grandma loved me alot.. infact she spoilt me.. hee.. i hv no doubt that she's been praying for me and melvin.. i wonder how you are rite now.. happy with Jesus i hope.. sometimes i wish u were still around.. cos u were always there when i got home.. u were always there to prepare lunch.. my favourite dishes u knew best.. my fave porridge with a whole egg in it.. that makes it orange-yellow in colour.. i always had for lunch after school.. i wish i knew you more .. why did u have to go.. i cried when my maid asked me what i was afraid of most.. i cried and cried.. and finally replied.. scared that u'll go.. that you'll eventually die.. u went earlier than i expected.. but i know u were lonely.. God knew.. cos grandpa died early.. my maid saw u tear.. i'm sorry.. for all the times i talked back..i was such a brat.. thank you Lord.. grandma was my fav. grandma was the reason why i got curious about You.. who is she praying to i asked.. pretending to follow you at times.. how funny.. i must have been..
nothing on earth will last.. nothing.. not even me.. life is short..
i hope to travel one more time before i quit.. perhaps one more time as a tour manager.. that is if God allows.. once more to test myself.. if i have improved.. anywhere will do God.. anywhere u want to send me.. whether its laid back Perth or exciting Goldcoast.. perhaps even freezing snowy Korea.. everywhere is beautiful with You .. cos U created them..
been toying with the thought of quitting.. how abt being an air stewardess.. but the thought of not being in singapore means i cannot commit my time to more meaningful stuff.. not unless its God's purpose and that i can still serve him.. i realise as God changes my attitude.. there are still alot of things i can learn from my job.. still alot.. :) new found motivation to go on..
every now and then... different people will come into my thoughts.. i was just thinking what happened to David since Sonic fest.. and the other day at sonic edge.. he came.. as well as for last wed cell.. and lately.. its been old grandma.. how major a role she played in my growing up.. grandma loved me alot.. infact she spoilt me.. hee.. i hv no doubt that she's been praying for me and melvin.. i wonder how you are rite now.. happy with Jesus i hope.. sometimes i wish u were still around.. cos u were always there when i got home.. u were always there to prepare lunch.. my favourite dishes u knew best.. my fave porridge with a whole egg in it.. that makes it orange-yellow in colour.. i always had for lunch after school.. i wish i knew you more .. why did u have to go.. i cried when my maid asked me what i was afraid of most.. i cried and cried.. and finally replied.. scared that u'll go.. that you'll eventually die.. u went earlier than i expected.. but i know u were lonely.. God knew.. cos grandpa died early.. my maid saw u tear.. i'm sorry.. for all the times i talked back..i was such a brat.. thank you Lord.. grandma was my fav. grandma was the reason why i got curious about You.. who is she praying to i asked.. pretending to follow you at times.. how funny.. i must have been..
nothing on earth will last.. nothing.. not even me.. life is short..
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