u know that horrible feeling of waking up and feeling more tired? i was on my way home on the MRT standing.. and i almost fell down when i was too tired and started dozing off.. that's like the warning sign my body is telling.. "shawna u need to rest!"
i need to spend more time with God!!! life is too cluttered right now.. :)
i have chosen the 3 worship songs for cellgroup this wed.. hehe.. don't know shit abt chords.. but i'm so thankful i got my dad to tell me... at least he can advise me which chords are better for the song.. sure hope this will bring dad to salvation.. dad's so sweet. i need to learn.. more more more.. hahah.. nah.
mom's so sweet.. she bought me the same muffin again the very next day when i said it was nice the night b4.. but i don't know how to tok to her still.. but she's slowly opening up.. i'm so touched.. so touched Lord.. cos i know u're working.. .. u are..
so am going to practise with symon tomorrow.. such a dear brother. he feeling victimise.. i can feel.. sigh. so sad.
i'm beginning to realise that brothers are equally important as sisters.. and its so hard to find platonic friendships.. but i've found it in people of God.. cos the world values are so different.. jus so different.. the world says me me me.. God says love ur neighbour as thyself. alot of times.. i see pple feeding off each others needs.. esp in relationships.. is that really loving towards ur neighbour?
i wanna adopt God's values.. and there's a reason why there are boundaries.. its to protect us.. not to hurt us.. jus like the 10 commandments. Pastor Kong once illustrated the 10 commandments as a playground but there's a fence around it.. so we can run all over the playground except we cannot go beyond the fence.. cos its there to protect us.. but being human.. we would try ways to jump over the fence.. the playground is not enuff.. in the end we get hurt... Just imagine a gigantic playground with all the mega slides and swings.. but yet some of us choose to look beyond the fence.. yearning for wat is beyond that's not meant for us at the wrong times.. we'll never be contented with wat we have.. always wanting more..
how do i reach out to pple God.. to pple i see so lost and disillusional.. and bitter.. how.. i don't know.. i'll nv be able to do it without You...
how much more will pple keep doing things to hurt each other.. how much more will pple keep talking about others behind their back.. not knowing how much the other party hurts..
how much more will we say negative things instead of saying positive stuff to encourage and edify each other.. how much more God..