in my jukebox - max3

come on barbie let's go party.. ah ah ah yea.. lol. yea.. those were the songs i grew up with.. so lame. :) these days.. i only play it when i need some upbeat music to exercise.. don't underestimate the power of music to motivate exercise.. yeah
i've been down.. spiritually down for the past week.. yeah.. have been neglecting alot of stuff.. including God. sigh.. at first.. i felt i wasn't honest with Him.. then i slowly gave up talking cos i don't know how to be honest anymore.. then i prayed for the passion for pursue Him.. cos Selwyn Hughs my daily devotional has been talking about passion for quite some time already.. then later on.. he talked abt forgiveness.. if we don't learn to forgive, we will never be able to get close to God.. aye. forgiveness.. i wish we could forgive and forget. the truth is.. our mistakes leaves an emotional scars on us.. and sometimes.. it haunts me.. over and over again. the deep regret of all the wrong choices i made. its to remind us not to make the same mistakes again.
lately.. celibacy (1 Cor. 7:7) was the word that popped into my head. 10yrs ago.. celibacy came up in a spiritual gifts test i took. i'm not sure how accurate it was.. but am seeking God in this. its weird.. perhaps.. after all, when we get to heaven, there will be no more marraiges cos its ever better than that.. : )
nothing beats a good day of rest, and for me slacking and doing nothing.. and some good hanging out with friends.. old friends.. k. am going on a danish diet. am going to work hard for my assignment due on 01march! its 2500 words.. ok crossing fingers.