Never Alone - BarlowGirl

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I may not have been there for you.. forgive me.. cos i'm only human.. forgive me..
this song.. is for all of you .. all my dear sisters.. all my dear brothers..
there are going to be times.. when you call out to God.. you cannot feel Him.. but that doesn't He's not there..
Leet.. hang in there gal.. u will get thru it.. u will.
The entire song is in a minor key.. which gives it a very angsty feeling.. God definitely knows the frustrations..
Trust the unseen. that's wat we must do. I cried out to no reply.. and i can't feel you by my side.. so i'll hold tight to what i know, you're here.. and i'm never alone.


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Stacie Orrico - (There's Gotta Be) More To Life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

[Chorus]
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

[repeat chorus]

Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

[repeat chorus x2]

I'm slipping..
I realise for a long time.. i've rejected my role.. as a big sister.. God has put me the eldest in the family for a reason.. perhaps.. a leader in my family all this while.. and i never realised it.. till a stranger said something that really struck me.. " next time when your parents grow old.. the 1st person they will be looking for will be you & not your brother.. your brother's lucky." and of cos for the 1st time in my life.. my dad asked me to suggest a restaurant to go to for CNY dinner.. arghh! i tot u all knew better..
i've failed as an example to my brother.. my own life is so screwed up.. how can i ever be a gd example to my own brother.. little did i know.. my brother follows my actions.. i don't want to be a leader.. i only want to be a friend. i hate to shoulder such responsibilities.. sometimes.. its jus so much easier to follow.. if this is where i am.. u think its easy.. i get all the shit when something happens.. i got reminded of my childhood.. how my uncle punished me.. for something that i meant for good intention.. but of cos it turned out really bad which caused harm to my lil bro.. i resented him deep down..... i forgave him only this year.. during CNY..
i wanted my bro to stop sucking him thumb.. cos he was way past the age of sucking thumb.. i put chilli on his finger.. and he went to rub his eyes.. i'm sorry.. i'm sorry lil bro.. i didn't hv foresight..

don't walk in front of me.. cos i may not follow.. don't walk behind me cos i may not lead.. jus walk beside me.. and be a friend...