listening to alex toh. tuo diao (*eww..)

in an attempt to find out why some of my girlfriends are so into sex in the city.. i borrowed the dvds.. and i must say.. its really all about sex in the city. for me.. i can imagine.. if i didn't know God.. i would really think its normal jus going to sleep around with people u date.. it pollutes my mind to a certain extent. its jus sad. so in season one.. carrie was gettin worried when she and her bf stopped having sex for the 3rd time in the week. and life seemed to be jus centred around sex. gosh.. on the surface.. it seems really shallow.
been there done that. its nothing like tat. hot passion is really something that would jus die off.. spur of the moment.. it seems to me the world is getting worse.. and suddenly i feel weak.. and dry. i have to stop putting junk into my head. sigh.. dry.. its the dry season again. i'm thankful still.. very grateful.. but why must there be dry seasons.. when reading your word doesn't seem to help.. perhaps not trying hard enuff.. perhaps i'm doin something wrong..
date rape. was it? i don't know. its been more than a year since.. and i went back to the scene.. nothing. zip. :) i know when i'm totally healed.
and so this year has been a year of change.. and its been a year of healing for me.. the only way to experience God.. is to have a relationship with Him. i must be crazy.. am i really talking to myself..
sometimes.. i think its jus lip service. oh screw lip service.. sigh.. wat happened to my heart of worship.. sigh. low. spirits are low.. but i'm gonna press in..