:) thanks suelynn.. u show that u care in your own special ways..
sometimes.. our own expectations kills.. it does.. the past few weeks.. all i've been getting is that..
so does it mean cos i don't put on make up i am not beautiful? to the world perhaps..
being different, being wierd.. how do u define that? jus because everyone else does it and you don't? so wat if i'm a freak? am i going to conform to the world's standards to meet up to their expectation? how many times have i been worried about what others think.. all my life. all my life... and i'm tired..
when u open up your heart.. there are bound to be hurts.. are gals generally jus more emotional and sensitive in certain areas? perhaps its just me.. i should jus shut my mouth.. i feel like going back into my shell.. again.. words are like daggers.. gossip kills.. it does.. words can hurt more than physical wounds.. i know that.. cos i've given it.. and received it..
everytime i react without thinking, without consulting God, no self control with my emotions only, things just go wrong.. perhaps not the way God would have wanted .. i realise how spiritually inmature i am.. i still have so much to learn..
though i wished i could have done things differently.. i didn't. i'm sorry i judged. pple i hardly even know.. and i'm pretty sure they know that.. cos of my actions. my aloofness.. my pride.. :(
how will i ever be a light of the world if i continue in my ways.. how will i ever be an ambassador for Christ..
God.. You promised never to leave me nor forsake me.. so pls don't forsake my loved ones, friends, brothers and sisters as well..
things that happen in their life.. i wish i could help.. but sometimes.. its jus not meant for me to.. cos i know You have a master plan.. all i can do is pray.. and even that sometimes i fail.. sigh
is it suppose to be like this? a daily struggle? where have i gone wrong or not done rite? perhaps not keeping your word like u said.. abide in me and i will in you..
i'm jus sad.. cos things goes on around me.. and i can do nothing to control it..i wish i could be there for everyone.. but i know i cannot.. only You can. i seek comfort in You.. cos u're our God.. almighty.. in control.. knowing exactly what people go through.. and why it happens.. all for a reason..
long time ago.. angie said that i am missing of something.. joy.. perhaps joy. joy in the Lord..
and life goes on. practising God's presence..
sometimes.. our own expectations kills.. it does.. the past few weeks.. all i've been getting is that..
so does it mean cos i don't put on make up i am not beautiful? to the world perhaps..
being different, being wierd.. how do u define that? jus because everyone else does it and you don't? so wat if i'm a freak? am i going to conform to the world's standards to meet up to their expectation? how many times have i been worried about what others think.. all my life. all my life... and i'm tired..
when u open up your heart.. there are bound to be hurts.. are gals generally jus more emotional and sensitive in certain areas? perhaps its just me.. i should jus shut my mouth.. i feel like going back into my shell.. again.. words are like daggers.. gossip kills.. it does.. words can hurt more than physical wounds.. i know that.. cos i've given it.. and received it..
everytime i react without thinking, without consulting God, no self control with my emotions only, things just go wrong.. perhaps not the way God would have wanted .. i realise how spiritually inmature i am.. i still have so much to learn..
though i wished i could have done things differently.. i didn't. i'm sorry i judged. pple i hardly even know.. and i'm pretty sure they know that.. cos of my actions. my aloofness.. my pride.. :(
how will i ever be a light of the world if i continue in my ways.. how will i ever be an ambassador for Christ..
God.. You promised never to leave me nor forsake me.. so pls don't forsake my loved ones, friends, brothers and sisters as well..
things that happen in their life.. i wish i could help.. but sometimes.. its jus not meant for me to.. cos i know You have a master plan.. all i can do is pray.. and even that sometimes i fail.. sigh
is it suppose to be like this? a daily struggle? where have i gone wrong or not done rite? perhaps not keeping your word like u said.. abide in me and i will in you..
i'm jus sad.. cos things goes on around me.. and i can do nothing to control it..i wish i could be there for everyone.. but i know i cannot.. only You can. i seek comfort in You.. cos u're our God.. almighty.. in control.. knowing exactly what people go through.. and why it happens.. all for a reason..
long time ago.. angie said that i am missing of something.. joy.. perhaps joy. joy in the Lord..
and life goes on. practising God's presence..
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