i need to stop socializing.. i need time alone.. to reflect once again.. what i have done wrong.. esp when i am blinded to my own mistakes.. time alone with God... I must give Him enough time to speak to me.. to take my worlds apart.. take my worlds apart.. .. why .. why..

if u had a problem with me.. why didn't u resolve it with me.. and clear up.. why give me the impression of hanging out.. and everything seemed so cool and dandy.. but everything ain't that cool after all.. it all seems so deceiving to a certain extend.. now i don't even know what other issues u still have with me.. hidden deep inside.. i don't want to hang out anymore.. i tot we are suppose to settle our issues immediately.. with our bros and sis whenever there is a problem.. why.. why why wait till now.. wish u cud hv done it sooner.. i'm so naive.. so naive.. you don't have to beat around the bush with me.. jus come direct. and say shawna i have a problem with you.. and then nip the problem in the bud.. and then we'll see how we can resolve from there.. why didn't u nip the problem in the bud sooner.. sometimes pple don't know their own mistakes.. they don't know how much they hurt others until the person tells them.. and that is my flaw.. my big stupid flaw..