so quick to judge, so quick to criticise.. sigh. is it jus me.. or is that a human weakness.. He knows too well.. so we have to rely on Him at all times.
i'm so harsh. sorry gal. crystal, i'll say sorry again. my tongue is terrible.. but thru my friendships of ups and downs, conflicts.. God is moulding me. Words can pierce thru the heart. thank you for forgiving me.
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I remember those times we quarreled, now i know what u mean when u said wat i said pierced thru ur heart like a bullet. i still have the bullet u gave me. i'm sorry. i remember now. but i let my memories fade. memories can never be forgotten.. but it can fade only if i allow them to. and its all slowly fading.. but God uses some of them to remind me of the lessons learned... i learned from my lessons..i'm sorry. i truly am. forgive me. whatever negative things that i have said, negative tots that i have conveyed.. i pray that it'll all be forgotten and never remembered and forgiven. Truly you are precious to God. Nothing in the past that happened, nothing that u do can change God's love for you. All He asks is to love Him back and everything else will jus slowly fall in place once you turn your heart towards Him. you gave me this "little book of help" many years back.. i tot it was useless. found it jus some time back.. and it does really help. cos it contains God's verses.. everytime i feel like shit, or wanna slack at work.. i take it out and read and memorise wat God says abt attitudes.. abt relationships, and life. thank you. i love it. its really small.. and i brought it to work. :)
something happened this morning.. xiaomi went missing. i panicked a little.. starting calling out xiaomi xiaomi!! xiaomi xiaomi.. no response. ok. i told myself not to panic. bailey jus kept meowing back at me even though i was calling out xiaomi. geez. lol maybe he was worried too.
ok.. 1st tot.. did she jump outta the window.. i closed the big one cos i feared that ever since she jumped out once at my old house. the small one is too small for her to squeeze out. k. then i fearfully looked out of the window.. hoping not to see her body. thank God i didn't. then i briefly told God something. mixed feelings. if she's really gone.. would i cry.. would i cry even though i know some day she will be gone.. preparin for the worst..
then a tot came to me.. it jus came cos i was trying to remember when was the last time i saw her. scratching my brown drawer. sharpening her paws. i opened the drawer i left ajar for a brief moment yesterday when i took out my clothes. and she popped out. phew. wat a relieve.
thank you Lord. cos i know life is so fragile. thankful for my cat. help me not take her for granted. i must have been so caught up with my own life.. i was caught unawares. sigh.
i'm so harsh. sorry gal. crystal, i'll say sorry again. my tongue is terrible.. but thru my friendships of ups and downs, conflicts.. God is moulding me. Words can pierce thru the heart. thank you for forgiving me.
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I remember those times we quarreled, now i know what u mean when u said wat i said pierced thru ur heart like a bullet. i still have the bullet u gave me. i'm sorry. i remember now. but i let my memories fade. memories can never be forgotten.. but it can fade only if i allow them to. and its all slowly fading.. but God uses some of them to remind me of the lessons learned... i learned from my lessons..i'm sorry. i truly am. forgive me. whatever negative things that i have said, negative tots that i have conveyed.. i pray that it'll all be forgotten and never remembered and forgiven. Truly you are precious to God. Nothing in the past that happened, nothing that u do can change God's love for you. All He asks is to love Him back and everything else will jus slowly fall in place once you turn your heart towards Him. you gave me this "little book of help" many years back.. i tot it was useless. found it jus some time back.. and it does really help. cos it contains God's verses.. everytime i feel like shit, or wanna slack at work.. i take it out and read and memorise wat God says abt attitudes.. abt relationships, and life. thank you. i love it. its really small.. and i brought it to work. :)
something happened this morning.. xiaomi went missing. i panicked a little.. starting calling out xiaomi xiaomi!! xiaomi xiaomi.. no response. ok. i told myself not to panic. bailey jus kept meowing back at me even though i was calling out xiaomi. geez. lol maybe he was worried too.
ok.. 1st tot.. did she jump outta the window.. i closed the big one cos i feared that ever since she jumped out once at my old house. the small one is too small for her to squeeze out. k. then i fearfully looked out of the window.. hoping not to see her body. thank God i didn't. then i briefly told God something. mixed feelings. if she's really gone.. would i cry.. would i cry even though i know some day she will be gone.. preparin for the worst..
then a tot came to me.. it jus came cos i was trying to remember when was the last time i saw her. scratching my brown drawer. sharpening her paws. i opened the drawer i left ajar for a brief moment yesterday when i took out my clothes. and she popped out. phew. wat a relieve.
thank you Lord. cos i know life is so fragile. thankful for my cat. help me not take her for granted. i must have been so caught up with my own life.. i was caught unawares. sigh.
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